The Scariest Prayer

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i asked God to make me decrease

so that He can increase in me.

i wasn’t ready for what would happen next.

a raging force began to

wage a war within my body

screaming loudly

to be soothed

coddled

pampered

so i obliged

and only by the third time

did i realize

i was being met with

my sickness

face to face

and i had to rebuke her

with stillness.

“God, I want to be more

like you.

make me decrease

so that you can increase.

I only want to burn

for you.”

refined.

tried by fire.

purified.

leaving old ways behind.

i had to lose the fight

to become one with the light.

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